...OF THE ESTEEMED LORD GINTOKI SAKATA, FIRST OF THEIR NAME, HAILING FROM THE REALM OF GINTAMA, RESIDING, AT PRESENT, IN THE THE GRAND CRESCENT. UNWED.
[ Okay, he'd sort of had a feeling that something was going on between Tsukuyo and Zoro but marriage? That just came out of nowhere. Tsukuyo's not even talked about-- Of course, she wouldn't talk about that, would she? About her and Zoro being ... But didn't he deserve to know? No, wait, why would he. Why should he expect that. And yet ...
He feels ...
Disappointed.
Sad.
There's no reason he should feel that. Wanting to marry Tsukuyo makes perfect sense, and it's not like he ever-- ]
[ Wait, hold on. Why the hell is Zoro even asking him at all? What's this about needing his blessing? This is just weird now! He's not Tsukuyo's dad, not even close! Besides, she can make up her own mind! What the hell is this guy on about?
What happens if he says no? Would Zoro actually, stubborn as he is, honour that?
[ Sure, this does save him the effort of pointedly not looking at her and not knowing what to say but this is a shitty way of communicating and could they just not do it at all. ]
guess I cant stop you
[ Not even saying anything about the 'idiot' thing. Too much else to internally scream about to think about external screaming. ]
[ Although she won't know quite what the hell to do with herself if he doesn't. But for the sake of her own sanity, she just needs to be honest with him. About how she feels, for once.
Deep breaths. It's a very long minute while she types to him. With plenty of pauses, deliberating whether she's even saying the right thing at all... but eventually: ]
I don't regret what we did. At all. The opposite.
You might not feel the same way and you don't need to tell me if you do or not but I just need to say that
[ The opposite of regret? She's ... happy about it?
Maybe that shouldn't come as such a surprise, since he knows perfectly well how she feels about him. But it does, because he can't shake the wretched feeling that settles in his chest whenever he thinks about it, whenever he's reminded of the feel of her against him, her fingers around his--
Not thinking about it. Absolutely not thinking about it.
For a long while, he considers not even responding. It would be so much easier to just leave it, pretend he actually didn't read it. Right? It would be. Then they could just move on and ... He could just move on. Easy.
It comes as a surprise that he knows about Zoro. She's not sure when or how he'd figured that one out when she'd never spoken about it with him. It's definitely embarrassing but she also realises that it's not the most difficult part of this conversation. Not for her anyway. ]
I don't know what that really means, not yet
[ Especially after the absolute mess of the last few days. But here goes nothing. Or absolutely everything. All that she does know for sure, that through everything, how she feels about Gintoki hasn't changed. ]
I've been talking to someone Someone who's wiser than me about all of this stuff. She told me that I don't need to choose That maybe this just means my heart is fuller than it was
I don't expect any promises from you and you wouldn't be bound to me while we're here or anything like that. I'd just like to spend more time with you, if you do too.
Like we did the other night. That's all.
[ Whatever he says, however he reacts... she's happy that she got all of that off her chest. She feels lighter for it. There's still weight on her shoulders but it's a whole lot less now, with regard to Gintoki at least. ]
She wants to have sex with him again? While still seeing Zoro? What the hell is going on here? Is that okay? Isn't that cheating? And Zoro's calling him 'husband' and ...
Does he want to? Does he want to ... share? Ugh, that sounds wrong. You can't share a person like you'd share an ice cream, just-- She doesn't regret it, she wants to do it again, and she's still with Zoro.
His head hurts. He feels a little sick. Or a lot sick. Too much happened while he was way too drunk and he wishes none of it had. ]
what, like some kinda friends with benefits deal?
[ What does he even say? He probably shouldn't have sent that at all. Probably should have just kept his ... fingers shut. This is why he doesn't get involved with friends! Now he won't be able to look Zoro or Tsukuyo in the eye, and how is he supposed to deal with this burning sensation in his chest that he can't place? Is it shame? Jealousy? Jealousy of what? ]
[ She can guess where his thoughts still are with this. Probably. She would have been thinking the same thing after all, had she not spent a year on some crazy alien sex planet where almost anything goes before she came here. ]
He sees another person, not just me. If he's even seeing me at all now after what I did. I don't expect him to.
[ You know, the whole mental crisis and taking off into the night with only a very brief letter left behind thing. Which she's assuming Gintoki knows about by now.
There's a pause before she sends through another message. Because internally her brain is making a noise similar to ahhhhhhhhhh right now at what she's about to say. ]
You mean too much to me to just be that [ "Friends with benefits". Because she is not writing that! ]
But if that's what you'd prefer, I can deal with that too. I just like being close to you. Whatever that means.
Everything in places like this is never permanent in my experience. That's why I ended up being sent home and then here. You or I could be back home in Edo tomorrow, tonight, next week, whenever... and the Gintoki or Tsukuyo we see there won't know a damn thing about any of this. That's probably a good thing. But while we're both here, I don't want to waste time.
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and i need your blessing
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Tsukuyo's hand.
Zoro's asking for Tsukuyo's hand?
How? Why? When did they get here? ]
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He feels ...
Disappointed.
Sad.
There's no reason he should feel that. Wanting to marry Tsukuyo makes perfect sense, and it's not like he ever-- ]
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What happens if he says no? Would Zoro actually, stubborn as he is, honour that?
HMMMMM. ]
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i have no choice but to accept that
thank you for your consideration
[ MR. BUSHIDO has left the chat! ]
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OI OI
What kinda man are you to do this over text anyway???
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now i know
i’ll just have to work harder to earn your respect
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What the hell does he even do with this. If this is all it takes for Zoro to decide not do it, maybe that's just as well. ]
unbelievable
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move in with us
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HUH?????
WHAT NO WHY
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how am i supposed to prove myself to you if you don't see my intentions in person?
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text, un: shinigamitayuu (sometime during the whole search party fiasco)
un: parfait king
sure
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No, no. It's okay. She's had a pep talk. She can do this. ]
It's about
the other night
[ Yeah she really shouldn't have to say which night. ]
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Oh no.
Oh no why did he say yes he thought it would be related to her leaving a note. Is it related to her leaving a note? ]
theres something to talk about??
[ HE DOESN'T WANT TO ANYMORE. ]
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[ Look, they know what each other are like at this point. At least this way they can't see each other...
OR is that worse?? HELL KNOWS ]
I need to say something
[ A pause. Before another message follows. ]
A few things
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guess I cant stop you
[ Not even saying anything about the 'idiot' thing. Too much else to internally scream about to think about external screaming. ]
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[ Although she won't know quite what the hell to do with herself if he doesn't. But for the sake of her own sanity, she just needs to be honest with him. About how she feels, for once.
Deep breaths. It's a very long minute while she types to him. With plenty of pauses, deliberating whether she's even saying the right thing at all... but eventually: ]
I don't regret what we did. At all.
The opposite.
You might not feel the same way and you don't need to tell me if you do or not but
I just need to say that
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Maybe that shouldn't come as such a surprise, since he knows perfectly well how she feels about him. But it does, because he can't shake the wretched feeling that settles in his chest whenever he thinks about it, whenever he's reminded of the feel of her against him, her fingers around his--
Not thinking about it. Absolutely not thinking about it.
For a long while, he considers not even responding. It would be so much easier to just leave it, pretend he actually didn't read it. Right? It would be. Then they could just move on and ... He could just move on. Easy.
...
Damn it. ]
but youre with Zoro
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It comes as a surprise that he knows about Zoro. She's not sure when or how he'd figured that one out when she'd never spoken about it with him. It's definitely embarrassing but she also realises that it's not the most difficult part of this conversation. Not for her anyway. ]
I don't know what that really means, not yet
[ Especially after the absolute mess of the last few days. But here goes nothing. Or absolutely everything. All that she does know for sure, that through everything, how she feels about Gintoki hasn't changed. ]
I've been talking to someone
Someone who's wiser than me about all of this stuff.
She told me that I don't need to choose
That maybe this just means my heart is fuller than it was
I don't expect any promises from you and you wouldn't be bound to me while we're here or anything like that.
I'd just like to spend more time with you, if you do too.
Like we did the other night.
That's all.
[ Whatever he says, however he reacts... she's happy that she got all of that off her chest. She feels lighter for it. There's still weight on her shoulders but it's a whole lot less now, with regard to Gintoki at least. ]
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She wants to have sex with him again? While still seeing Zoro? What the hell is going on here? Is that okay? Isn't that cheating? And Zoro's calling him 'husband' and ...
Does he want to? Does he want to ... share? Ugh, that sounds wrong. You can't share a person like you'd share an ice cream, just-- She doesn't regret it, she wants to do it again, and she's still with Zoro.
His head hurts. He feels a little sick. Or a lot sick. Too much happened while he was way too drunk and he wishes none of it had. ]
what, like some kinda friends with benefits deal?
[ What does he even say? He probably shouldn't have sent that at all. Probably should have just kept his ... fingers shut. This is why he doesn't get involved with friends! Now he won't be able to look Zoro or Tsukuyo in the eye, and how is he supposed to deal with this burning sensation in his chest that he can't place? Is it shame? Jealousy? Jealousy of what? ]
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He sees another person, not just me.
If he's even seeing me at all now after what I did. I don't expect him to.
[ You know, the whole mental crisis and taking off into the night with only a very brief letter left behind thing. Which she's assuming Gintoki knows about by now.
There's a pause before she sends through another message. Because internally her brain is making a noise similar to ahhhhhhhhhh right now at what she's about to say. ]
You mean too much to me to just be that [ "Friends with benefits". Because she is not writing that! ]
But if that's what you'd prefer, I can deal with that too.
I just like being close to you. Whatever that means.
Everything in places like this is never permanent in my experience. That's why I ended up being sent home and then here.
You or I could be back home in Edo tomorrow, tonight, next week, whenever... and the Gintoki or Tsukuyo we see there won't know a damn thing about any of this.
That's probably a good thing.
But while we're both here, I don't want to waste time.
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