...OF THE ESTEEMED LORD GINTOKI SAKATA, FIRST OF THEIR NAME, HAILING FROM THE REALM OF GINTAMA, RESIDING, AT PRESENT, IN THE THE GRAND CRESCENT. UNWED.
[ He suddenly feels sort of cold. This is why he didn't want to talk about it. He hates this conversation, he's let it go on for too long, but he can't back out now either. ]
no no dont get the wrong idea i just feel like craphate this place i wish it would have happened differently hadnt happened that way
Yet, it should be what he wants. For them both to pretend it never happened, so she can go be with Zoro and be happy. Even if they're allowed to be with other people or however that works, Gintoki hardly has to be involved in that. Who wants that?
She thinks he's worth everything, huh?
'My only condition is that you give it your all.' Somehow, he remembers Zoro saying that through the haze of those memories. Probably because it sounds so similar to what his family and friends have told him in the past, because it was so very Zoro that he could have potentially made a fool of himself from excitement of being at the receiving end of that kind of speech.
He can't believe he's typing this. ]
cant believe your texting me. cant have a conversation like this. Where are you?
[ Should she tell him? Logically, she shouldn't. She doesn't know how much he's been talking to anyone else since everything went down but telling him where she is immediately heightens the chance that she'll be found again. Also, it's putting him in a weird position if anyone asks but... ]
You can't tell anyone.
I have a room at the Trident. Temporarily.
[ She doesn't stop to think that just so happens to be the scene of the "crime" in terms of where they first kissed, that time he got sick from Poseidon's mess. ]
[ Unfortunately, on the way there he has plenty of time to second-guess his decision to not drop the conversation at any point. Everything his friends and family have been telling him the past few years must be doing something, because it's not too long ago that he's pretty sure he would have hidden from this way earlier and probably made an effort to never speak to Tsukuyo again.
As is, he just ... He's not entirely sure what he wants. Or, rather, he knows he wants Tsukuyo, but a lot of what she's saying is making his head spin, and he's terrified of the very idea to begin with, never mind adding Zoro's proposal and all that on top of it.
He still makes it there in the end, and orders and downs a pitcher of ale for courage before he texts her again. Not enough to make him drunk, in fact he's barely even tipsy from that, so hopefully it's not super obvious.
Although she probably wouldn't judge him too harshly. ]
[ Tsukuyo doesn't text him back to announce that she's coming down to meet him or anything. She just appears in the seat opposite him - you know, because ninja. ]
Ya came then.
...
I wouldn't have blamed ya if ya didn't.
[ She hasn't seen him since... that night. She's trying her best not to think about that, or specific parts of it at least. The parts where she was naked, on top of him, where it felt really damn good and-- No, not going there right now.
... She doesn't blame him for drinking either, she'd be doing the same if she wasn't determined to keep a clear head. A fact that's definitely better for both of them. ]
[ For a few moments, he doesn't say anything, his eyes fixed somewhere at the wall, not even close to her face. He'd expected that she'd want to go back up to her room to avoid being seen by someone else, but if this is fine for her, it's fine for him.
He idly rubs the back of his neck as he finally speaks. ]
I thought about it. But ...
[ He drops his hand and leans back to pretend that he's more relaxed than he is, for himself as much as anyone else. ]
[ The urge to retreat to her room is strong. There's every chance Zoro in particular could come in here for a drink, although he'd probably prefer a bottle of his own back on the boat. ]
I seem to still be managin' to hide.
But then I'm hidin' from two people who can't stop arguin' so. [ Ever. She doesn't need to have heard them to imagine how a search would have gone. ]
...
I meant what I said earlier. Ya don't have to do anythin'.
[ It's about now that she realises that she's yelling... yes, it's a noisy, brawl-filled establishment often enough, but she's still yelling enough to get quite a few stares in their direction.
He gets one of those dumb grins on his face, always amused whenever she freaks out like this. For a moment, he forgets entirely about being self-conscious or worried about his emotions. ]
Uhhh. Something about how important I am to you, I think. Don't really remember.
Ya do remember! Ya clearly remember! Otherwise ya wouldn't have that look on yer face!
[ You know, that shit-eating grin of his that makes her want to throw things. Mainly at him. God, if it's obvious even to Zoro... although she's not sure if he knows to what extent just yet... ]
[ Obviously, he did come here to say something. Something that wasn't coming across over text, but that he realises he doesn't know how to get across in speech either. He pauses for a few seconds, trying to get his thoughts in order. ]
There's something he said I remember very clearly. He told me if I was gonna marry you I had to give it my all. That's why I couldn't stop. Doesn't mean I wanna marry you, but it doesn't mean I don't wanna marry you either. I just ...
[ He sighs, turning his gaze up to the sky. ]
You're worth everything to me too, d'you get that? I'd raze Japan to the ground for you.
[ Did he just…? Not ever in a million years the reply she was expecting. She knows her face is burning hot at this point and she finds she has to avert her own gaze a moment, in case she combusts. It feels like she might. ]
…
Don’t say somethin’ like that to a woman and expect her to go back to her room alone. [ The way she says it isn’t even suggestive or sexual, she just… plain old doesn’t want him to leave. ]
Even if I ain’t one.
[ Yeah, she’s still sticking with that old line. She just… needs to have it on this occasion. When it feels like her heart might beat right on out of her chest. It’s the only familiar thing she can hold onto. ]
[ He's not even sure what to say to that. All he can do is make some weird breathy laugh that he feels way too self-conscious about, worried she might take it the wrong way, and he lowers his head to stare down at the table for a while. ]
All right, keep it in your pants.
[ Awkward jokes in a loaded conversation. That's what you do when you don't know what to say. ]
[ Honestly, it's a relief when he makes such a dumb, awkward joke. It brings a dose of normality to this... very not normal situation between them right now. She fixes him with one of her usual deeply unimpressed, flat Looks. ]
...
Ya didn't seem to mind before.
[ Is she... flirting? Sort of? Like, actually flirting. With him. With her words. Not just in a stupid way as part of a gag where she doesn't actually mean any of it.
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no that ain't it. Are you actually listening to what im saying? or I guess reading what im writing. my point is that wouldnt be fair
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We can't take it back
But I can keep on pretending that it didn't happen, if that's what needs to be done
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Yet, it should be what he wants. For them both to pretend it never happened, so she can go be with Zoro and be happy. Even if they're allowed to be with other people or however that works, Gintoki hardly has to be involved in that. Who wants that?
She thinks he's worth everything, huh?
'My only condition is that you give it your all.' Somehow, he remembers Zoro saying that through the haze of those memories. Probably because it sounds so similar to what his family and friends have told him in the past, because it was so very Zoro that he could have potentially made a fool of himself from excitement of being at the receiving end of that kind of speech.
He can't believe he's typing this. ]
cant believe your texting me. cant have a conversation like this. Where are you?
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You can't tell anyone.
I have a room at the Trident. Temporarily.
[ She doesn't stop to think that just so happens to be the scene of the "crime" in terms of where they first kissed, that time he got sick from Poseidon's mess. ]
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[ Like something out of a dumb spy movie.
Next she'll be asking him what the secret code is. ]
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[ Unfortunately, on the way there he has plenty of time to second-guess his decision to not drop the conversation at any point. Everything his friends and family have been telling him the past few years must be doing something, because it's not too long ago that he's pretty sure he would have hidden from this way earlier and probably made an effort to never speak to Tsukuyo again.
As is, he just ... He's not entirely sure what he wants. Or, rather, he knows he wants Tsukuyo, but a lot of what she's saying is making his head spin, and he's terrified of the very idea to begin with, never mind adding Zoro's proposal and all that on top of it.
He still makes it there in the end, and orders and downs a pitcher of ale for courage before he texts her again. Not enough to make him drunk, in fact he's barely even tipsy from that, so hopefully it's not super obvious.
Although she probably wouldn't judge him too harshly. ]
i'm here
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Ya came then.
...
I wouldn't have blamed ya if ya didn't.
[ She hasn't seen him since... that night. She's trying her best not to think about that, or specific parts of it at least. The parts where she was naked, on top of him, where it felt really damn good and-- No, not going there right now.
... She doesn't blame him for drinking either, she'd be doing the same if she wasn't determined to keep a clear head. A fact that's definitely better for both of them. ]
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He idly rubs the back of his neck as he finally speaks. ]
I thought about it. But ...
[ He drops his hand and leans back to pretend that he's more relaxed than he is, for himself as much as anyone else. ]
I don't wanna be that kinda man anymore.
'sides, no way this town's big enough for hiding.
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I seem to still be managin' to hide.
But then I'm hidin' from two people who can't stop arguin' so. [ Ever. She doesn't need to have heard them to imagine how a search would have gone. ]
...
I meant what I said earlier. Ya don't have to do anythin'.
I just... needed to tell ya how I felt.
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[ Of course, he feels like he barely even gets himself, which is a problem.
But he has to start somewhere, so as his gaze flickers briefly over to her, he sighs and smiles wryly. ]
Did ya know Zoro proposed to me? During that night in the park. He said I should get married to all of you.
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What?
Freaking out in 3...
2.....
1.......... ]
2/3 i lied
How many people did he-- Just how many people are involved in this mess??
[ Did he just wander around the entire party just proposing to people left, right and centre?? What in the hell?? ]
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She immediately lowers her voice. ]
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Why would he ask ya too?
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He gets one of those dumb grins on his face, always amused whenever she freaks out like this. For a moment, he forgets entirely about being self-conscious or worried about his emotions. ]
Uhhh. Something about how important I am to you, I think. Don't really remember.
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Ya do remember! Ya clearly remember! Otherwise ya wouldn't have that look on yer face!
[ You know, that shit-eating grin of his that makes her want to throw things. Mainly at him. God, if it's obvious even to Zoro... although she's not sure if he knows to what extent just yet... ]
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[ Never mind that Zoro seems to think so. ]
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[ She absolutely is freaking out. ]
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What does matter then?
...What did ya want to say to me? Ya wouldn't have come all this way for no reason. We could'a just stopped textin' earlier.
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There's something he said I remember very clearly. He told me if I was gonna marry you I had to give it my all. That's why I couldn't stop. Doesn't mean I wanna marry you, but it doesn't mean I don't wanna marry you either. I just ...
[ He sighs, turning his gaze up to the sky. ]
You're worth everything to me too, d'you get that? I'd raze Japan to the ground for you.
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Don’t say somethin’ like that to a woman and expect her to go back to her room alone. [ The way she says it isn’t even suggestive or sexual, she just… plain old doesn’t want him to leave. ]
Even if I ain’t one.
[ Yeah, she’s still sticking with that old line. She just… needs to have it on this occasion. When it feels like her heart might beat right on out of her chest. It’s the only familiar thing she can hold onto. ]
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All right, keep it in your pants.
[ Awkward jokes in a loaded conversation. That's what you do when you don't know what to say. ]
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...
Ya didn't seem to mind before.
[ Is she... flirting? Sort of? Like, actually flirting. With him. With her words. Not just in a stupid way as part of a gag where she doesn't actually mean any of it.
Maybe.
Just... nobody look at her right now. ]
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