[ It's going to take a while, because Gintoki stays in the bathroom until the blood has slowed, shoves paper up his nostrils, and then goes to clean up the blood from the hallway. He's well aware Kondo is still here, though, because he heard the fridge. Definitely in no hurry to go there.
But, finally, here he is. Though just in the doorway. ]
The hell was that for?
[ No, he actually doesn't know. But he probably only needs a hint. ]
[Kondo's been sitting there like a particularly stony statue, as if petrified in a moment of solemn reflection. However, no sculptor could capture the brimming fire in those eyes.
He doesn't even turn to look at Gintoki. Stares straight ahead as he bites out:]
Oh ... Shit. That had been public. He completely forgot. There's some comment about police and stalking people's conversations lying heavily on the tip of his tongue, but in the end he swallows it down because, well ... It's nothing less than what he deserves for that, really.
He fucked up bad. He sure knows that much.
There's not another word from him as he steps over, sitting down at the other end of the couch and grabbing his beer. Well. He's here, finally. Ball's in your court, Kondo. ]
[He still makes no move to grab his own, arms instead remain crossed over his chest. Only then, then does he turn to Gintoki to gaze at him steadily. The anger simmers slowly.]
Before you say anything, this is my business. That woman is absolutely my business. I won't ask for any kind of excuse from you...I know that isn't your style.
[he stills for a moment, stalls, the words working on his tongue, rearranging themselves besides 'how fucking dare you's and 'I'm going to give you a swirly your perm will never forget's. And then:]
Why do you think this is the best way of letting people down. Especially young ones. You forget how gentle their hearts are, how, once you've washed your hands of whatever involvement you want or don't, they still have to go on with those words. And it makes me so angry I don't know how I haven't strangled you yet.
[ "That woman is absolutely" ... What does that even mean? Gintoki sends Kondo a puzzled look, but still says nothing as he takes a sip of the beer. And as Kondo continues, Gintoki bites back more comments, like how there are so many things Kondo just doesn't understand, how protecting that gentle heart is exactly what he's trying to do because he never wants anybody's heart to shatter like his has and have to be rebuilt with nails and screws, how Kondo really is a hundred years too early to talk to him about young hearts and the words said to them ...
'Thank you.'
He says none of those either. ]
If you're not asking for an excuse I don't know what you're here for.
[ What is he supposed to say? "I'll fix it?" Well, he is trying, trying to let Milly knows he matters to her. "I'll tell her I take it back?" That'll probably just make a greater mess. "I'll apologise?" He was just trying to be ... honest? Something like it. It's difficult.
All he knows is that she should go for something better. Let him be. Best that way. ]
[that just makes him angrier, blazing hot beneath his skin until all he can do is reach out and grab Gintoki by collar, knuckles white--]
Because you made her cry, you asshole! You made her cry and then you made her shut down. And I can't accept that because she's been through a lot, so much I don't even know...and you have too, you've been through stuff I don't understand so I can't understand why you would do this and think its okay!? Not everyone can just take that the way you dish it out...
[he looks away, now, away from those dead fish eyes he knows are capable of feeling pain for others, he knows it. He just...]
I don't get it..I don't get it. But you have to make this right. You have to. Because no one else but you can....I can only do so much to hold us all together.
[ The beer spills, a little, when his collar is grabbed, but he doesn't react. Just looks into those angry eyes with the same expression as always. Nonchalance. Kondo can't actually think any of this is news to him. ]
I didn't.
[ It's a quiet mutter, as his chin lowers, thick bangs falling down over his eyes, and stays silent for a few long moments. ]
I don't have a magic wand to swing and make it all better. There's no such thing.
[he has to keep them together, keep them rolling up and tangling like a huge ball of yarn, or rubber bands that have no choice but to cling to one another to hold their shape. This group, these gintamas plus a few pubes along the way.
Kondo shakes Gin just the slightest bit as if he can't help it, as if shaking him will shake some sense into him, make sense out of this]
No, but you have a mouth. And while it says some really stupid shit sometimes, you have good things to say too. So be there for her. You want to, don't you? You don't want to abandon her. So don't. You can be that strong, can't you?
[ jksdd don't shake him he's holding beer?? He rather abruptly puts that down, though, and grabs Kondo's wrists. He doesn't pull Kondo's hands away, but he's already gotten punched so. Can they not, maybe?
There's a long pause as he says nothing. There's something on his tongue about it not being about being strong, but maybe ... Maybe it is. It's probably just him. Him that's scared about hurting someone, rather than scared about that person being hurt. Something selfish. But he doesn't know ... He doesn't know. ]
[he stills the moment Gin comes into contact with him, brows knit like he doesn't understand because, well...he still doesn't. He doesn't get it, he doesn't, he just doesn't. Teeth grit--]
This isn't the time for jokes! This is a young woman's happiness on the line. All you have to do is open that mouth and talk. Talk. You don't want her to be unhappy, do you? I don't know why you think her not being your friend will make her happier, because frankly that's dumb as hell, but...but that's...it isn't true.
[ Oh, Kondo ... It is exactly the time for jokes. It's the time for jokes because it means Gintoki understands, it means he agrees, and that there's frankly nothing else to talk about. Of course, Kondo doesn't know him as well as some do.
Katsura would get it.
He sighs, tired, and tries to pry Kondo's hands away. ]
I'm not.
I took her somewhere for her birthday. If that's all this is about, are you done?
[slowly, slowly, wide gorilla paws release Gintoki, and though his hands still remain on the others chest, just remaining, he continues to frown.]
This isn't about that! Did you make up? This is about the principle of the matter. This is about removing more of the sadness in her heart. And not just...just giving her something because, because its easier. It's about the actual right thing, which is to get your head out of your butt.
[he's not even sure he's making sense anymore and damn is it frustrating]
[TO BE CLOSER TO YOUR HEART, YOU FUCK. NOT TO SEE WHAT YOUR -A CUP IS LIKE. Kondo's fingers curl into useless fists again. Sometimes it seems like they've been like that a lot lately. Useless. Unable to do anything.]
Are you just assuming she's over it? That some ride with a bad boy into the night will sooth her heart? Well it won't! You can't just...just do that....be good to her, Gintoki.
[his brows knit again, a troubled look in his eyes. He just doesn't get it. Why'd he change his mind, then? Gintoki makes no sense, main characters are so confusing]
Why'd you change your mind? Did your little Jimmeny talk to you?
[ Finally he releases Kondo's hands, though it's cautious, as though that decision might come back to bite him in the ass. After a moment, though, he dares turn and get back to his beer. ]
Change my mind about what? What are you going on about now?
[ There's a pause as he stares Kondo down, but then ... he doesn't respond, and instead turns away to finish his beer. That's as much of an answer as Kondo is going to get, but it basically means "I guess I was." ]
[His expression lightens just a tad....in this case, silence is as good as anything. His own beer, probably luke-warm by now, calls to his attention. Kondo scoops it up, pops open the tab, and guzzles some down.]
Gintoki puts the empty can on the table and leans against the backrest, tilting his head back to rest against the top of it. And as he does, he lifts an arm and carefully touches his nose. ]
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But, finally, here he is. Though just in the doorway. ]
The hell was that for?
[ No, he actually doesn't know. But he probably only needs a hint. ]
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He doesn't even turn to look at Gintoki. Stares straight ahead as he bites out:]
Milly.
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Oh ... Shit. That had been public. He completely forgot. There's some comment about police and stalking people's conversations lying heavily on the tip of his tongue, but in the end he swallows it down because, well ... It's nothing less than what he deserves for that, really.
He fucked up bad. He sure knows that much.
There's not another word from him as he steps over, sitting down at the other end of the couch and grabbing his beer. Well. He's here, finally. Ball's in your court, Kondo. ]
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Before you say anything, this is my business. That woman is absolutely my business. I won't ask for any kind of excuse from you...I know that isn't your style.
[he stills for a moment, stalls, the words working on his tongue, rearranging themselves besides 'how fucking dare you's and 'I'm going to give you a swirly your perm will never forget's. And then:]
Why do you think this is the best way of letting people down. Especially young ones. You forget how gentle their hearts are, how, once you've washed your hands of whatever involvement you want or don't, they still have to go on with those words. And it makes me so angry I don't know how I haven't strangled you yet.
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'Thank you.'
He says none of those either. ]
If you're not asking for an excuse I don't know what you're here for.
[ What is he supposed to say? "I'll fix it?" Well, he is trying, trying to let Milly knows he matters to her. "I'll tell her I take it back?" That'll probably just make a greater mess. "I'll apologise?" He was just trying to be ... honest? Something like it. It's difficult.
All he knows is that she should go for something better. Let him be. Best that way. ]
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Because you made her cry, you asshole! You made her cry and then you made her shut down. And I can't accept that because she's been through a lot, so much I don't even know...and you have too, you've been through stuff I don't understand so I can't understand why you would do this and think its okay!? Not everyone can just take that the way you dish it out...
[he looks away, now, away from those dead fish eyes he knows are capable of feeling pain for others, he knows it. He just...]
I don't get it..I don't get it. But you have to make this right. You have to. Because no one else but you can....I can only do so much to hold us all together.
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I didn't.
[ It's a quiet mutter, as his chin lowers, thick bangs falling down over his eyes, and stays silent for a few long moments. ]
I don't have a magic wand to swing and make it all better. There's no such thing.
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Kondo shakes Gin just the slightest bit as if he can't help it, as if shaking him will shake some sense into him, make sense out of this]
No, but you have a mouth. And while it says some really stupid shit sometimes, you have good things to say too. So be there for her. You want to, don't you? You don't want to abandon her. So don't. You can be that strong, can't you?
Or should we get a new main character after all?
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There's a long pause as he says nothing. There's something on his tongue about it not being about being strong, but maybe ... Maybe it is. It's probably just him. Him that's scared about hurting someone, rather than scared about that person being hurt. Something selfish. But he doesn't know ... He doesn't know. ]
Hell are you saying? I'll sue.
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This isn't the time for jokes! This is a young woman's happiness on the line. All you have to do is open that mouth and talk. Talk. You don't want her to be unhappy, do you? I don't know why you think her not being your friend will make her happier, because frankly that's dumb as hell, but...but that's...it isn't true.
[his words taper off, cracking]
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Katsura would get it.
He sighs, tired, and tries to pry Kondo's hands away. ]
I'm not.
I took her somewhere for her birthday. If that's all this is about, are you done?
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This isn't about that! Did you make up? This is about the principle of the matter. This is about removing more of the sadness in her heart. And not just...just giving her something because, because its easier. It's about the actual right thing, which is to get your head out of your butt.
[he's not even sure he's making sense anymore and damn is it frustrating]
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No, seriously, why put them there. Gintoki glances down, blinking, while Kondo talks.
Why there?
When he looks back up, he's a decent bit more annoyed. ]
Look, I'm telling you I'm still her friend, you dumb gorilla.
[ He's pulling those hands away now, thanks. ]
Get off my case.
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Are you just assuming she's over it? That some ride with a bad boy into the night will sooth her heart? Well it won't! You can't just...just do that....be good to her, Gintoki.
[his brows knit again, a troubled look in his eyes. He just doesn't get it. Why'd he change his mind, then? Gintoki makes no sense, main characters are so confusing]
Why'd you change your mind? Did your little Jimmeny talk to you?
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Change my mind about what? What are you going on about now?
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[fretful now, he releases Gin, pats him once on the chest as if to say 'no more...not to these hearts'. His mouth pulls into the biggest damn frown.
He's so confused why are all these main characTERS SO FUCKING CONFUSING!]
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[ Huff. ]
I didn't exactly have a plan with that conversation, if that's what you think.
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[it's much more than boobs....this time its much, much more.]
You just pulled it out of your ass? Or were you scared. [the way he says it isn't teasing, just a low hum of question]
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I'm the main character, oi. You think I get scared?
[ Yes. ]
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[matter of factly]
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Gintoki puts the empty can on the table and leans against the backrest, tilting his head back to rest against the top of it. And as he does, he lifts an arm and carefully touches his nose. ]
Police brutality, oi.
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Technically I'm off duty. I don't even have a badge this time. Just one man looking out for one woman.
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[ Where did he pick up that bullshit. ]
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im gonna fucking barf get out of here
no u
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